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Tag: guilt

  • Befriend you demons

    Yes they come haunting; the demons; more often than not. To uproot your present reality, remind you of the past scars and sometimes promise you unreal future.

    But you can be stronger than you think you are. So spin them around to reinforce your past – good, bad or ugly. Emerge resilient to face the decisions you took and own them. Living up a 100% to your decisions is a myth, so, stay rooted in reality and give yourself a pay on the back for achieving even 50%. Afterall, no one can live in your shoes permanently, save you!

  • What if…?

    Isn’t that a lingering thought on most of your decisions from the past? Had I known what I ‘know today’, I would have decided differently – says the present mind.

    Time travel anyone?

    But funnily enough we know what we know, and we don’t know what we don’t know. Hence your decision was based on the best information available at that point in time. Even if you had to make the same decision over and over again – the outcome would barely be different!
    So, it’s just now, comfortably placed in your present that you can romanticize with the fantasy land of ‘What if…?’

  • Navras – the realm of emotions

    Emotions, root emovere. A latin word which means movement. So emotions equal movement, what makes you act. Feelings that make you do what you do.

    And then there are all the labels we use for emotions – positive, negative, catastrophic, euphoric. Its unfair to label our emotions. They are at most  intense, calm, pleasant or unpleasant. It’s what you do basis these emotions which make for a positive or a negative outcome.

    But bear in mind that all emotions are welcome, all behaviours aren’t. It’s like looking at a dashboard – where emotions are the insights. They are signals waiting to be interpreted and not problems waiting to be solved.

    Feelings come and go like waves in the ocean. They say time and tide wait for none. And emotions, well,  they knock on our doors every moment we are alive.

    So don’t be ashamed of what you feel. Stay unabashedly true to what you feel. But make sure what you do after reflects your journey as an individual.

  • Burden of memories

    For all the years past, all the love lost and all the silence borne. I wish I could cry in your arms until the tears stopped flowing. I wish I could erase the memories sparing just the laughs. I wish I could ease the pain until only love remained.

    I wish I could find words to express. Courage to ask forgiveness. Strength to meet you. Intellect to rein emotions. I want to keep the memories minus the aches, the experience without the trauma and the faces without the words that were exchanged.

    In forgiveness I seek freedom. Freedom from guilt, ache, painful memories and all the sufferings related to it. For in my mind I am still the wrong doer who is out free and hence doesn’t deserve to be happy.