Burden of memories

For all the years past, all the love lost and all the silence borne. I wish I could cry in your arms until the tears stopped flowing. I wish I could erase the memories sparing just the laughs. I wish I could ease the pain until only love remained.

I wish I could find words to express. Courage to ask forgiveness. Strength to meet you. Intellect to rein emotions. I want to keep the memories minus the aches, the experience without the trauma and the faces without the words that were exchanged.

In forgiveness I seek freedom. Freedom from guilt, ache, painful memories and all the sufferings related to it. For in my mind I am still the wrong doer who is out free and hence doesn’t deserve to be happy.